Maeb eu still didnt realise; tat i still cnt accept the fact of losing u yet..
U noe; None of this wud b so hard if i didnt still love u-even on daes when i hated u..
yeps; ppl sae dat i shud not let u go off dat easily if i reali'reali do love u..
i noe i shud not take it all lying down';crying..

I regret it this much..I noe is shud have told hym i loved him..
I shud have begged him nort to leave & i shud hav promised dat thing wld b different if we get back tghtr..
But i noe i have to spare a thought; i shudn't b selfish..
Cox ppl' eu shud just allow me a little dignity..
Even how much disastrous situation tat i have to go through; i'll go through!
cox all i ever wanted him to have; is his own happiness..
I want hym to seek his own happiness..
Yeah; mayb i cnt overcome myself crying & crying for losing hym..
Let me suffer for hym..

And so; let me tell u..
when u wanted this to end; eu noe i looked up at eu & said this..
"tarqpe; i tarq mrh..i narq u hapii jeqk.."
yet i force myself to smile..*my tears rolling down*
Im sad; dissapointed;confused;lost!
Coz eu said eu still love me; its just that eu tynq im nort the perfect guy for eu & eu said eu cnt make me hapi!
but hey; who the hell is perfect in this world?
which rltshp are perfecr?!
e've said once b4..time ago when we just started this rltsp..
eu told me eu wldnt change & will try ur best to make me happy..u want me to have faith in u..
and i did..& i hope u noe i did..Faith & trust i have put on eu..
Tat explains the things im facing now..
sumtin i have to rmbr the rest of my life..
Cox boi; u nvr tried HARD enuff to make me hapi; feel secured that this rltsp is FNE!
eu said u were afraid of losing me!but hei; eu r the one leaving me behind..
Mayb u dunt even care of losing me again and again; and again..

Ily for hu u r..even if u hurt me so much..i tried hiding my sadness; not to cry & my dissapointment..
Cox one thing i want to show is tat im stong; eventhough deep inside im too week to sae anitin else..
I dun want u to worry abt me when i said i cnt live w/o u..
I noe tat wld make ey preassured even more..
And when our conversations and rltshp ends.. eu said we cld be gd frens..
wat the heck for..its not goin b the same as b4..
so why am i wasting my time?Flames to dust..Lovers to friends?!!
Why do all good thing to an end?!!& i thought eu were serious all this whi;le..
After everything..i hid myself up..
i nvr showed my solemness to anibodi..
Cox i've told eu this b4; i jus HATE to TELL!!
& i thought i had the chances wif eu; to get eu back..and yeahh..
tat wt i thought..coz eu said eu STILL loved me..
but now; i receive this news..u were already moving on;easily..
im still here wishing;hoping;praying & crying to get u back..
Fcuk shiit; eu have moved on..and tat so easily..
Where the love eu once said??
Ouhh boy..mayb it just lies..
But i noe i havent SEEN or HEARD the truth..
But yet; i hope this things aint real..
i hope those are just lies..!
LIES..

Aidil; though eu broke my heart..im gonna break those heart of the ppl who broke UR heart!
& im not going to let them; ani of dem HURT u..
& im not gona leave anione who wish to broke MY heart; the way eu do..
Cox i noe; im goin to be revengeful!
Since eu left me in this state; im goin to reciprocate...
NOT to eu..!but to ppl who caused this happen!
Eu leftme in the state were i nyd ur love the most!
it brings a great impact on me; that this is the way i become..
ANY more blardy news..i noe..im gona be back; WILD..?
Tats me..I can bring my prgi back..(:
Not for eu; but this tym..its for ME! :D