Behind This Fakesmiles;
There's A Tears Falling Down At My
Cheeks & Inside My Heart Was Totally Break .
For My One & Only Guy;
Who Used To Close With Me.
& Rmbr This Words U Told Me ?
CINTA KU KEPADA MU IBARAT
DRAGON DI ATAS AWAN SAYANG (:
You are not alone, for I am here with you
Though you're far away, I am here to stay
For you are not alone, for I am here with you
Though we're far apart, you're always in my heartA Miserable Life. A Fcuked Up Life Too. 2010 Just Sucks Too Much For Me. My 2010 Sucks So Much ! It Even Started 2weeks Before New Year. How Many More Hell Must I Live In Huh ? Why Must It Be Me Who Suffer Much ? It Have Always Been Me ! Why Oh Why ?Then I Should Be The Miss Fcuked Up. Maybe You All Don't Get It, But I Do ! Omg. I Feel So Fcuked Up, So Sad, So Dissapointed, So Going To Be Insane. I Can Feel It Deep In Me. Urgh. I Just Dont Feel Well Luh ! I'm Telling You, I Look So Dead. If Anyone Would Not Know Who Am I, They Would Already Have Said This. "She Looks As If She Doesnt Have A Life !" Serious, I'm Not Lie-ing.
Well, I'm Sorry If My Post Today Seem So Down. Cause I'm Always Down Actually. Like Everyday. But As You Know, Friends Are ALWAYS And STILL There For Me to Make Me Smile. And Yes, I Make Myself Look Happy Infront Of Anyone. Only Certain People Knows Actually I Am ! It's Difficult To See Me Smile, Laugh, Being Crazy Like I've Always Been. I'm Totally A Different Person When Nobody's Around ! Only Some Close One Know How Different I Was Actually. Now, That Person No Longer Gonna Be Here For Me. I Don't Know How He Is Now, Wether He Eats Well Everyday, Wether He Still Around Doing His Best. I Fcuking Not Gonna Anything Anymore ! I'm Not Gonna Elaborate Wether It's A He, But I Know He Know Who I'm Referring To.
I'M GOING INSANE WITH MY LIFE LIKE THIS. FAMILY IS SOMETIME GOING CRAZY, WHICH I WON'T ELABORATE MUCH ABOUT THEM ! A BITCH WHO DONT UNDERSTAND OTHER PEOPLES PROBLEM, BUT ONLY THINK FOR HERSELF. WHAT THE FUCK. LANGGAR WIRE AKO JEK PANDAI. ABOUT LOVE, MY HEART, MY HEAD, THE WHOLE OF MYSELF IS SUPER COMPLICATED ! I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL IS GONNA HAPPEN TO ME SOON. I'VE WENT CRAZY THINKING. NOTHING IN THE PAST IS GETTING OUT OF MY HEAD ! WHY OH WHY ? WHAT A SAD & FCUKED UP LIFE I'M IN UH ! SOMETIMES, SHED TEARS IS THE BEST WAY I CAN DO. EVERYONE KNOWS HOW STRONG I AM, I DONT SHOW IT TO PEOPLE. I'M ALWAYS HAPPY, SMILING AND JOKES AROUND CAUSE I DONT WANT ANY OTHER PEOPLE TO BE AFFECTED ! NTAH LUH, AKO PON TATAWU APA NK JADY DGN AKO. LAME-LAME KENA ANTAR G IMH SIOLS.I HOPE I GONNA BE FINE SOON. I REALLY WANT TO MOVE ON HAPPILY. NOT ONLY THE OUTSIDE, BUT THE INSIDE ! :(URGH. WHEN IS MY LIFE GONNA BE BETTER ? WHO'S SO KIND AND TRUTHFULLY WANT TO BE THE ONE WHO GONNA HANG ON WITH ME THE WHOLE LIFE ? 
